is it possible that PMS can have a positive effect on a person? sometimes i am completely aware of hormonal influences on my emotions. sometimes i can feel the rainbow waves of chemicals swirling from one side of my brain to the other, and i can sort of laugh at myself (even sometimes while i'm crying) for not being able to help it. the past few days i've found myself uncharacteristically happy. which is not to say that i'm not generally very content with things. it's just been a sort of mania that i've not come down from, and it's coincided perfectly with events which usually have the opposite effect.

friday night i managed to get far more drunk than i'm used to. alcohol usually just makes me tired or sick, but i guess starting the night off with red wine helps the process along nicely. i was I-love-you drunk; all my friends were beautiful and i wanted them to know. we ended up at p&h karaoke, where i started to get that i-need-to-go-home feeling until i realized the wonderful technique of hiding behind a pair of sunglasses. i swear, if you're ever in a situation where you feel intimidated or embarrassed, just put on a giant pair of sunglasses and you'll immediately feel superior to everyone around you. i never thought i'd be one of those assholes, but now i get it.

i vaguely remember singing material girl with lauren and doing the robot. it made perfect sense at the time. i also think i may have ruined sean's song by trying to sing it with him...what can i say? i felt invincible.